Friday 21 April 2017

To the generation who has forgotten to love 💔

To the break-ups done wrong and the rebounds done right , we are the generation with a pace of light.

It's over .
Yes dats it , with these 2 words your Lovestory comes to an end.
What was supposed to be your forever love is merely an incomplete sentence now.
People these days love less and lust more. It's a fact , a fact of this speedy young generation .

Well , we all have dealt with heart breaks and I would not lie by saying I am not one of them but we are good at rebounding , arn't we?
We constantly try to be more positive more happy more social after a break up.
We slap on some makeup n move ahead .
But do we really move ahead ?

Its like, the best way to get over someone is to get under someone.

This is the new mantra of today's generation .

We are not among those old cliches of locking ourselves in our rooms with an ice-cream tub . We are a generation of waterproof mascara and matte lipstick .
With perfect selfie pictures boasting our social life.
We click a lot , alot to show rather convince people that Yes, we are the cool ones.
We are a generation of all the mixed emotions rupturing deep inside us.
Emotions of jeleousy , envy , being betrayed , left lonely and what not . A generation like ours is the most unstable ones where we constantly try comparing others on-screen rather social life with our backstage life. You , my dear are beautiful ❤ in your own simple way , we need to stop comparing social life with our real ones as they are different by all means.

You might hook up to some1 els , u might kiss another pair of lips , this , the definition of perfect rebound where touches mean nothing and kisses are best left unforgotten ,a voice beneath yells that it's unhealthy but a more powerful voice convinces you that it's COOL.

Yes we are a generation of breakups and patch ups where forever loves last only till one gets laid. Where the only emotion is of lust.

For all those who think rebounding soon is the only way to overcome break up please take a pause .
Feel the pain , the pain which will make u stronger.
Feel the world around you , for that it's not the only end of your life .
Deal with this feeling , the feeling of being betrayed , the feeling of being ditched . I demand to feel it for that it will only make you stronger.
Take this in a positive way.
Feel the heat of the tears , for that it will eventually stop .
Go beyond yourself , for that I believe you can .
Don't stop loving just cause some1 els did the same to you , You my dear are one of a kind. Love hard ! It's the best feeling in the world .
For the one who's made for you sees you in the every next person he meets . Let the spark in you always glow , cause you my dear are beautiful ❤
Be you , your own beautiful type , believe in you , your spark, your color for that you are as beautiful as a crayon which enhances a painting by its vivid colours. So my dear always remember...

"Even crayons break, however they still colour the same " 😉

Love hard no matter what for that all your love will once come back to you and stay forever ❤

Friday 17 July 2015

Known STRANGERS !!


It was a mistake," you said. But the
cruel thing was, it felt like the
mistake was mine, for trusting you.

Here's a story of Aarush and Milli .....
    It was during the higher school days when Aarush ( a fair healthy physic with an average height of 5'7 carrying a cool manly beard with black eyes white shirt blue spykar jeans , a bit nerdy yet unobtrusively good looking) freezes his eyes over an average sized girl having a height of 5'1 a fair toned skin, brown eyes, pale brown wavy hair wearing a red top n a black denim..she was a perfect combo of beauty with brains ,suddenly when the professor said 'Ya Milli you can get in the class' is the moment which made Aarush realized that her name was Milli...
Milli was made to sit on the second last bench of the class ahead of Aarush.
'Bas bhi kar, kitna taadega ladki ko' were the words said by Sanchit who sat besides Aarush and was Aarush's best frnd ..
Things went the same many days... Milli engrossed in studies used to concentrate over the professor and Aarush continued concentrating over Milli.. 
It was Sunday wen Milli post lunch at her home was about to sleep was surprised reading a"hi wassup" message from an unknown number , question to which she got a reply that "Hi I am Aarush :) " ,Milli questioned "From whom did u received my contact number?" Aarush replied " Ur best frnd Preeti gave me your number." and the conversation ended over there as Milli was off to sleep.
The next day during the physic lecture in a private institute, Aarush was eager to expect a warm smile from Milli as according to him he had a chat with Milli which made him thought that things would turn up his side..
Bt to his disappointment Milli didn't gave him a warm smile neither any importance which Aarush was expecting it to happen..
Sanchit , whispered "Bhai baat kar le , Tu start to kar pehle"
To which Aarush replied "Ruk bhai time Dekh k baat karta hu"
as the professor gave a break of 10 mins , most of the students left the classroom to wander in the corridor , Aarush greeted a "Hi" , to which Milli replied "hey hello" , So you comfortable na your friend shared your number with me??- asked Aarush .. Ammm ya its fine m okay with it - replied Milli and they had a healthy conversation of about 10 mins and later on the students started to get in the class and the professor started with the lecture once again..
Things were turning over Aarush's side he was succeeding to gain Milli's trust and eventually they from semi known friends turned to Best friends...
Aarush had a crush over Milli from the first sight itself but he was a bit casanova and over boasting kind of nature, which made him pretend that it might be just a passing affair or an attraction nothing serious to think about...
Milli on the other side also started to like Aarush's company ,as he use to make her laugh , he used to care for her so did she and it went on .. Aarush was indeed a very charming boy he had his values intact with him bt the fact that he is a"Boy" always made him to pretend as if he is a carefree-carelesss persona.. Milli used to love Aarush for his way of expressing love to her...
One fine afternoon Milli received a text over her mobile it was Aarush's msg saying " hi .. I wanna say someting serious to u"  Curiously Milli replied in seconds "wat??" (there were some of expected questions and replies going on in Milli's mind with a wild guess she thought - is he gonna propose me??) and to here instinct , yes.. Aarush replied "I luv u Milli" ...
Milli was frozen for seconds... she didn't knew how to reply.. with a long pause she replied"No Aarush I cnt get into relationships again , I hv had a very bad experience from my past."
Milli during her school days had a serious affair with a guy .. who eventually dumped her up by settling with another gal.. depressed Milli didn't wanted to get into this love and its side effects over n over again...
Aarush being modest tried to convince Milli , he tried to assure Milli that he won't b her bad experience ever .. to which Milli melted and ... ya ... she said a YES...
They had a chat for about 2 hr discussing their hobbies , their favourite destinations and all sort of general talks...
That night when Milli had briefed Aarush about her breakup , she also asked Aarush about his past...
To which Aarush replied 'Yes I too have a past' I too was committed with a gal named Kinjal since our school days.. we both had a very strong bond.. we spent most of our time at kinjal's house (as she had both parents working, and she being a singleton child used to be all alone) further he added that don't worry Milli v broked up now.. she shifted to outskirts of town .. Now v r jst formal friends..
Possessed Milli replied .."hmmm.. and wat if she tried to contact u again :(??"
To which Aarush addressed Milli .. "Don't worry Jaanu , she is my past .. u r my present.  now u r my everything... luv u :* "
A great satisfaction flushed in the veins of Milli making her smile reading that message..
Days passed with such affectionate love... Aarush n Milli's affair was overrated by many guys and gals around as dey seemed to b perfect fo each other... Aarush was indeed a responsible guy towards her gal.. The way he cared fo Milli , the way he was possessive about her was remarkable...
His small small stuffs impressed Milli a lot .. she was deeply in luv wid him and so was Aarush..
And suddenly things started changing...
Milli started noticing something's getting fishy...
Aarush being with Milli used to constantly chat with some1 on the other side...
Milli started noticing this for few days and one fine day she asked ...
Aarush m noticing that u r on chat constantly what's d matter??
To which he replied ..
" Nothing such baby .. I jst wanted to share one thing with u.. Two days before Kinjal texted me.. "
Surprised hearing this Milli shouted "What?? what did she said...??
Aarush replied " Baby nothin jst normal chat , she wants to get into relationship with me again"
"so what did u replied to her" - asked Milli.
"Nothing, I said here that I m into relation with u, stupid" giving a smile he replied..
Milli still unsatisfied agreed and believed what Aarush said..
Days passed and exams were near...
Aarush being an average guy used to hv a struggle with the books..but Milli on the other got through the books and studies very well..
In between all of this ,Milli's bst frnd Preeti and Sneha had a great argument ...
The argument started with not sharing the proper notes to each other.. And eventually it changed topics and crossed few limits....
Both Preeti and Sneha argued to no extent which finally ended up revealing some hidden secrets of each other including Aarush's ... :( :(
Preeti who had lost her temper decided to reveal what ever she had hidden frm Milli without bothering the consequences...
Milli had a text from Preeti " Meet me tomorrow after college , I need to talk something urgent .. dnt let Aarush no that I texted u  , okay ??"
Milli was blank about what had happened as she had only a blur clue that all dis people (preeti , Sneha including Aarush) have had an massive argument..
she being calm replied preeti "Okay dear tk cre"
Milli had a sleepless night.... As the clock turned 8 she left home for college...
Today was the day which turned out a turning point in Milli's life..
Preeti and Milli as decided after college had a halt at the back campus of the college..
Milli with full curiosity started questioning "Wat happened Preeti wats so urgent and important to tell about?? m worried Yarr speak up..  !!"
Preeti being silent for moments.. said.. Milli its something about Aarush..
wat..?? wat about Aarush?? - with a very worried expression asked milli...
He is ditching u Milli... He is not at all serious with u..  said Preeti..
Wat do u mean by that Preeti.. he is your bestfrnd too, you both r like siblings rite?? You urself assured me his innocence when I asked a suggestion about him, didn't u?? replied Milli with tears rolling down here eyes...
Preeti giving her condolence added further .. see Milli what ever I m going to say you today is as true as my existence and as our friendship.. U have to believe me over this... It tuk me this long to reveal the truth for which m very guilty... M sorry... Preeti taking a pause continued...
Things were like Aarush being in relation with you.. used to have late night chats with me after u went to sleep.. he used to compliment my looks daily .. used to ask me to marry him as we belong to the same caste and many more such stuffs..  But believe me Milli I am innocent in all dis.. I used to always remind him about you.. I used to always stop him from saying all those stuffs... My only mistake is that I should have had told you all this from the day it began.. bt to be true even at a certain moment I thought that Aarush is serious with u so I used to avoid his nonsense talks and use to jst ignore them.. said Preeti
And there stood Milli quite, trying to control here tears , wipping them before rolling down the cheeks in a fear of being noticed , Preeti's words broked Milli's heart into pieces.. she was devastated completely .. she constantly started reminding what Aarush had promised her , about not breaking her heart again...bt the truth was something bitter.. she had a heart break again and this time it was even worse for her to handle as the boy she trusted alot turned out to be flirting with her own best frnd.. added to which Preeti also said that Aarush also used to visit his ex girlfrnd's house and there were lot more stories told...
Milli still wanted to have a talk about this with Aarush bt ,the feeling of being betrayed stopped her from doing so and she decided to just walk away without having any contact with Aarush even once..
Aarush on the other after knowing what Preeti have done .. abused here a lot.. and started calling continuously to Milli...  Bt Milli being hurt didn't bother to reply to any of his calls.. Nor messages...
Bt as said ....  she was deeply in luv with him after a few attempts of pretending to ignore Aarush's calls... Milli finally received his call and said "Aarush I don't want to listen anyting its over now.. u betrayed me.. crying over the phone which was clearly noticeable ... added further I didn't expected this from u... I trusted u... and u broke my trust.. U flirted with my best frnd.. its really sad..
To which Aarush replied.. " trust me its nothing such Preeti is lying..I agree I used to chat with Kinjal , but I never had a meet with her neither did I had any such chats with Preeti " Aarush was also weeping hard on the other side..
But the reason why Milli agreed to decide what Preeti said was truth is the conformance of Sneha, Milli's second most best frnd , she was the witness of have read those chat of Preeti and Aarush..
This incident had a very bad impact on Milli and Aarush also ... 

Today Milli is living a normal life but with no One whom she can trust upon...

Aarush on the other side tried contacting and apologizing to Milli since months which turned to years...
The matter and the anger faded with time..

Till today Milli receives a B'day wish on her every b'day from Aarush ever since they broke.. and still today he wants Milli in his life, waiting for her..  but Milli has lost all the faith and trust over Aarush...

She tried settling with another guy , no doubt he is a gem of a person.. but deep inside Milli agrees a fact that no one could ever replace Aarush's place..
She still cant get rid of Aarush's thoughts , his love, her love towards him.

Today Milli and Aarush are no more then known STRANGERS.. 

Everything in their story now just have a prefix like...

If Aarush would have been true .. v wuld have been happy..
If Milli would hv trusted Aarush .. v would hv been together..
and many more such If's and but's ...

Its not that Milli didn't gave Aarush a second chance...
She did.. they were again into relationship after a span of about 2 years .. but things didn't turned the way they should have had...
Eventually it ended even worse...

There are many such Aarush and Milli's around struggling to forget each other or trying to patch up with each other...

My suggestion would be Always trust whom u Love and Never love whom u doubt !! 
Cz TRUST when once broken is vry hard to build up again..

Being madly in love is Okay... but being blindly in love is not...
No matter Aarush would b guilty for what he have done bt d fact that he betrayed Milli would not cover up things any more...
Therefore I wuld like to say below lines to all of u guys..
There's no such pain as gained by hurting someone and there's no such satisfaction gained by not ditching anyone...
Stay happy Be true...(Inspired by a true incident)

Thank you

Saturday 11 July 2015

ForEver TWINSA

         It all started at the age of 6 when things around started to make difference I was able to differentiate between a tea and a coffee between ice creams and chapatis between my clothes and my twin sister's clothes...(d differentiation was on d basis of sizes, me being thin used to wear two size smaller, rest d fabric and outfit used to b ditto of my twin) Yahh !! that was d point which made me realized that I am an extra pea in a single pod !!
 I and my sister have a very unique bond between us.. its like we fight to reunite. I can still remember how our argument turned into massive fights .. and how we shared d same emotions..
One such memory I would like to share .....
             It was during my primary school days wen we had our school time scheduled during noon , we were always dressed up by our mom ( would like to mention d attire dos days be like - one pony as if there's a black colored coconut tree growing within my hair, ironed school dress- which used to be a red and grey checked shirt over which v were supposed to wear a grey frock with plattes and a waist belt around ; white socks within a white and blue canvas shoes and a handkerchief pinned up to the lower area of my left clavicle) Ya so finally after v were dressed up our mom feed us with the lunch and v were supposed to leave for school with a Good bye wave and a strong cheek kiss by our mom.. 
Okay !!!! so the real fun begins from here.....
           As our school was at walk-able distance and so v always went school by walking so as v left our building premise I and my sis had a conversation over the MARBLE PAPER which v were supposed to bring for that day's craft lecture , my twin sis being elder by 1 min had few of her dominating advantages , she being smart grabbed d whole new pack of Marble papers from our shelf ( A 12 Cm * 12 Cm square colorful paper sheet) During dos days that pack of paper cost around 2 rs. and consisted of about 6 papers all attractive colors including ( Orange , pink , blue, red , black and yellow) So things went wrong wen I realized that I had only d black color marble paper in my bag , I requested her to lend me d orange and yellow color of the paper bt she being dominating directly rejected for lending me d papers..Which suddenly made changes in my hormones n my mind state changed from being perfect to a physco murderer ..I suddenly halted in d middle of d road and started my tantrums of having a new pack of marble paper but I was forgetting d fact that there is no one around to entertain my tantrums realizing to which I grabbed my sister's bag very tightly and told her "better give me dos two colors or else give me 1 rs (as I was having another 1rs with me) for buying a new pack", and again... my sister being a bit dominating rejected for the same ..I being stubborn decided to buy a new pack of paper any how.. 
With a very arrogant voice I told my sister " Tu jaa mi te marbel paper gheunch yenar " without having a clue of how wuld I make up buying dat pack of paper wid only a rupee.. bt... just to show my heights of stubbornness I decided to go from the other way not our usual way( our school being in d center of d area had many ways to reach) so my sister turned back having a glance over me and continued walking over d same way v used to prefer reaching school and I trying to be a lil over-smart turned around and started walking d other way in between, were v had one stationary shop, bt.. bt.... I knew that I only had a single rupee wid me so there were constant and rapid thoughts creating confusion in my mind of how wuld I buy dat pack of papers, and me being idiot kept waiting for around more dan an hour wid dat heavy over sized school bag tugged over my tini mini shoulders under a tree ( I still dnt hv ny explanation abt y I kept standing beneath a tree for so longgg) and after an hour wen my legs started giving up I went to d store and requested d shopkeeper in a sweet voice " kaka mala marble paper dya na mazya kade fakta 1 rupay aahe mi udya dein tumhala" I being d regular customer d shopkeeper gave me dat paper pack fo 1 rs and me being happy started moving to school widout realizing d tym...
As I reached school premise I got a reality check dat ...Ohh God !!! y m not able to see any teachers; bai's and my friends here.. which eventually made me realized dat I m going to have a bad day today.. I was scared to d peak bt still I gathered all of my courage and moved up stairs wid baby steps and was really not at all ready to face my class teacher .. As I reached my class room d thing which happened to me is d only reason y I choosed  dis topic fo my blog..
My bettrhalf , my soulmate , my twinsa was crying and weeping very badly ..
My class teacher asked me " where were u dis long ?? its 2:15 ( our school tym used to b frm 12:00 noon to 6:30 eve) she said v called your parents, added to it was, ur sister is crying since 1 hour .. n blah blah... ( d reason I was nt attentive to wat my teacher was saying is becz I was surprised and was constantly staring my better half shredding tears fo me) after a scolding of abt 10 mins( in front of d whole class)  I was allowed to seat for the rest of d lectures by marking a late remark in my calendr and my parents wer informed abt me reaching d school.. 
I and my sister were made to sit together as soon as I had a seat my better half grabbed my hand and holding it tight she whispered " kuthe hotis Tu?? mi khup ghabarli hoti" and started weeping again..to which my teacher replied in a stern voice " quite pls maintain silence .. I already had a waste of abt 15-20 mins , won't tolerate more" 
Dis moment and d incident was nailed in my memory ..
Dis is d luv which only twins around can understand no matter hw much v fight bt.. v fight to REUNITE. 
Each pair has a special relationship, so strong it is the envy of many a "singleton" child.
Unlike "identical twins" who are born after a single embryo divides in the mother's womb.
"Fraternal" twins are the result of two fertilised eggs.
According to the Australian Twin Registry, across cultures only four pairs of twins are born per 1000 births. In an average about one in 80 births is a twin and, of these, 30 percent are monozygotic, or identical, twins.
V r indeed among-st d rare ones Prajkta.
To be true you feel a lot more confident in your qualities or your personality, because you can see those in your twin.
The greatest thing is, you know that you'll never be alone: 
you could do the worst crime in the world (not that you would) and you'll always have that support, even if you're wrong.
When we were little, we were always up to mischief. If one of us got into trouble, it would be both of us who would get branded - that happened quite frequently.
We are always happy together.
We're the best of friends. We'd always take each other's side in primary school or high school. People rarely bullied us.
People ask us what it's like having a twin and we always say: "What is it like being a non-twin and not having a shadow?"
We have the same sense of humor, I guess. We like the same types of people, but she's very much a tomboy who prefers wearing a torn jeans I prefer frilly dresses, and pets are my thing.
No matter I would prefer a guy who is wonderful bt I always feel like Prajkta will be my soul mate, no matter who else is in my life. We're thinking of getting a wrist tattoo inked and inscribing it wid "FOREVER TWINSA"
There's definitely something special about being a twin. I know how she's feeling just reading her body language. I can read her probably better than she can read herself. At the moment we are employed (in d same firm . pursuing d same master's degree from a similar university ) and we also share wardrobes.
I really feel lucky to have a twin , a better half so cute, it's a feeling of just being contented, fulfilled and
appreciated

          Thank You.